Music has been in my spirit since as early as I can remember as a 6 year old. I ran up to my cousin and started singing Shawty Swing My Way by K.P. and Envy. I swore up and down I could sing and you know what no one could tell me different. Until that is, she was the last compliment I got for a string of 10 years straight.
I would sit in my room practicing and practicing and singing my heart out and the only thing that was always guranteed is I was going to vibrate the walls of my neighbors. I know my mom heard me, but I think it was more like if I got on her nerves maybe she would've told me to shut up but she didn't. So I figure that could've been confirmation that others thought I could sing. She let me be in my own world.
As much as she got on me about things that I didnt always understand, I later found that the space she gave me to explore myself and do things on my own and figure out life for myself; which gave me an independence that I grew resentful of at one point.
After getting no compliments at all, you start to doubt yourself, I recall this woman saying to me I would never be a singer. She claimed to be a psychic, she didnt see singing in my repetoire. More than one “psychic” said this. I think back and say wow, were they wrong, music and art is the ONLY thing I have done CONSISTENTLY my whole life, music much more.
Now in terms of being a painter and a natural artist and creator, I'd say it looks like I am much better at painting as if I have mastered it on many levels, but I've been doing music much more. Why because music does something, I'm using my music to paint, I rarely paint in a silent room. People can go without paint brushes, but will they go without their favorite playlist? Will they go through life without ever listening to a song they love?
I think not, but people can go their whole lives without seeing a paint brush. I went with the thing I can't breathe without and that's music. There is not a day that goes by unless I am in silent meditation where I don't sing. So it's safe to say music is my life.
But….
Whatabout when life gets in the way and music seems like its more of a distraction?
I've known survival in and out and if you become a part of my Patreon Framily at A Healer's Playground and Join me at TheLaSageExperience.com , you will get to hear all of my stories, also if you download my EP Live Stories, you can get the tea also, plenty will be coming down the pipeline. It's not for drama but its so you know it's all real, and what I have been through would have others on their knees but I am more than a Survivor, I am a thriver and I know that my stories will influence another who maybe feels alone or just can relate. I activate healing in others and what they do with it is their business; but usually a seed of healing leads to domino effect with others remembering who they are in God, in Oneness with Creation, and Oneness with Self.
Anywho back to it, I've found that my survival has actually generated a deep seed of creativity in me, almost every single time. If i dont allow it to take me all the way under, my emotion that is, then I can channel it into my art. I literally have two music videos where I was in the process of losing my home, one of them was recorded on the same day.
I recall sitting at a ceremony in the backyard where a group of sisters gathered in the name of spiritual healing. Later in a more casual conversational segment a young lady asked me to sing and I did. When I opened my eyes I saw a young woman balling her eyes out, i reached out to give her a hug.
I used to cry watching others sing, never would I believe that someone could feel the healing of the song that is coming through me and being affected to tears. From that point on, a new threshold had been reached, I had been learning how to do Reiki Energy Healing and other healing modalities at the time, but not one point did I think that I could use my own voice as a healing tool. My partner at the time bought me tickets to a Floetry concert and Flo said, “I know yall come to listen to us perform our music, but I am a healer first.” This statement resonated in my soul, cause what?? that's meeeee!
These are moments where the levels of my being was being revealed to me. My Divine mission was not to just sing, but to put out a divine frequency to align with the harmony music brings and level out the dissonance that it can be used for.
P.S.
Healing is my biggest motivation and that includes using the Divine gifts that I have and serving the people I've been assigned to serve.
One of my motivations besides my amazing, beautiful daughters, are to use this platform to fund my organization A Healer's Playground, one that helps highly sensitive beings and the oppressed to use creativity and holistic healing methods in order to heal their trauma. If you would like to tune into this cause and see it to fruition join the framily to get updates on how you can help, but you can also email me directly L.Moselle@ahealersplayground.com